i wish it was this simple

Your absence can turn blue skies into thunderstorms
You ruin me
I walk around doing things I enjoy
I speak to people I love
I succeed, I progress, I press on but I struggle against the weight
You took my heart clean out of my chest
But did you run away with it? No, not a thief with so much honor
You filled it up with memories
Made it heavy every time you walked out the door
Caused it to swell with pride, excitement, joy
And, with a few words, you shackled it to my ankle
And here I stand
Waiting for you to return
And chase away the clouds

perfect for me

I'm literally looking to the stars now
your sign and mine, those twinkling lights
dance past the moon and blue-black sea of dark
they whisper confidences in the night
I could not have picked you from a crowded room
to be my compliment, my confidante
they're saying low, how long I've wished to know
your identity, the best of me, astrology

what have you been up to?

look at me and tell me if you see someone you knew
this coincidence is prayer disguised as fate
today I'm searching for the "me" that I will leave behind tomorrow
like a shell left by the waves upon the shoreline

most mornings I roll out of bed at ten past five a.m.
to catch the last of midnight's sweetness turning over in the sky
I lift my eyes to heaven gradually
like great weights over my head
but still I thank the Lord above for one more day
on earth instead

it's not that every day is perfect
like you and me they have their faults
but I love each day I'm living
because of all that I have lost
I've lost friends and I've lost family
I've lost time and I've lost youth
but today I choose to lose myself to love
and loving you